everything changes. It's been almost a year since we got here, Sunken Sky. At least that’s what the citizens called it since it is no longer ‘the farthest’, “only an outsider said that.” they said. and the name ‘Sunken’ is the fact that the first person ever to discover this land was still a Skyland but it was too low as if it was like a sunken sky.  This place is truly a blessed place. the modern city, buildings that could peek at the Skyland, and even a brighter night than my clear sky. this civilization is made by everyone who seeks this land, the fact that the outsider like I once still thought this place is a myth because everyone who found this place decided to stay and never leave so the words this place exist never came out. It is said that this land gives you much much longer ages. there is even our family but from completely different generations here. Thanks to that, it turns out that Kinasle’s family has a lot of wealth here. Kina got a job at her family company here and became the general secretary, she lived in the apartment in the heart of this city. For me, I figured since there is only my family asset in here yet no family customs, I decided to open up a small tea stall. I lived in a small flat near kina’s apartment. Every afternoon I accompany Kina and walk home together. Sometimes we go to my tea stall before we head home, my left hand still in recovery but the condition is getting better. everything's changed, Including one small detail.

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“I want you more than any virtue in the world.”,

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UGH! Why did I say that cheesy word? I couldn’t even save her without doing something stupid. It was heated at the moment and I know Kina didn’t even hear it but why do I still feel embarrassed? It's not like I have feelings for her, right? I mean come on, she is my best friend, knows my ups and downs, she's the one who would accompany me through the journey, not only the journey from our old village to here but since I was a kid. In fact, I have never even dated someone yet, my family was so dense and my dad probably would’ve picked my wife out of my agreement. I don’t know what it is like to feel in love before. I think it is because the monotonous life I've been dealing back then makes me didn’t even think to seek it. it is settled then, that word coming from my mouth was out of a struggle to save my best friend’s life and nothing more.

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but,

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She is the only person that I noticed when we all train. her bright smile, her confidence, and how the sun always favors her. I can sense all the positive energy resting on her lap when she feels tired. She is the only one who isn’t afraid of telling me what she wants while I sit there and follow what my family instructed me to do and the rest of the trainees follow the trainer. I remember she challenged me to a spar while she clearly knows I was already in train for the advanced. I never lost at her eyes because I always found comfort through. In every place that I could use to calm my mind about my late mother, I chose her favorite place because I know no matter how cold the water is, her presence warms the entire place. she sees someone just like everyone else, she didn’t discriminate against anyone. She helps everyone with her kind soul. she will use every last breath to save me. no, she will definitely save everyone that dear to her with every last breath of her. She loves yeoli birds because yeoli will always trust humans no matter how much they’ve been hunted. And when we saw the Sunken Sky for the first time in the forest hill I couldn't even remember the view of the city. how selfish I am, because all I could remember on that day is, I can’t stop looking at you with that smile brighter than the city lights.

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so maybe I was wrong,

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Maybe that word coming out from my mouth is not only me trying to save my best friend. Maybe it was a painful cry for help. maybe it was actually genuine. maybe I just said what I actually want. Maybe I was screaming prayers to God to let me save her. maybe it wasn’t even my mind, it was my heart that confessed not only for her but for my soul as well. maybe, no, no maybe. it is true,

I love her.

 

[Sunken Heart]